“Our Christmas Eve visit to your grave was really difficult for me, especially. Anya managed to be strong… me – not so much. It just doesn’t feel like Christmas this year, without you… I miss you so damned much, Jasten!”

Visiting Jasten’s grave before we head on down to Mom’s. We tidied up and added some new white flowers from “Nanny” (my mom), some orange-yellow roses from Anya and I, and started placing the little stones… we’ll add more as we collect them. So sad to have to visit my only son’s grave on Christmas Eve. It hurts. 💔😭