I am a Suicide Loss Survivor and a Suicide Attempt Survivor. I am still here... but my son lost the war.

Jasten is my beloved son. I lost him to suicide on September 25th of 2017. The anniversary of his final sunset invoked some of my creative energies to come back. I designed a commemorative tee and hoodie in Jasten's honour. I needed to make this design to offer the opportunity to show his handsome face as the work of art that he always was. I turned one of his photos into a digital art piece and I feel like I have done him justice by making this as unique as I could, seeing as my Jas was an incredibly unique individual.

Our little family has been hit very hard by his loss and there really is no recovery, only an eternal journey in coping with this tragic grief. Losing my son has been the most difficult thing I have ever experienced, then I have had to attempt to live without him and that is even harder. If it weren't for my daughter, I could not possibly make it. Like Jasten, I too, suffer with mental illness and I have to fight suicidal, intrusive thoughts every day. Since losing him, that fight has become quite a battle. It is my daughter who keeps me going.

Suicide is not selfish. It is to mental illness what stage 4 is to cancer. It is the end of the worst part of the depths of darkness

Please help to support our family and promote Suicide Prevention by purchasing one of these items. You will be doing something really good. The items are available in the Exclusive category. #StopSuicide


November 23, 2017

our first thanksgiving without him

October 26, 2017


October 5, 2017

hometown commemoration

The memorial wall on Ringwood Ave. – Jasten’s Wanaque-Ringwood-Haskell FRAMILY did a nice job of showing him their love. 💙